Am I supposed to feel this way?

Some of you may know that I recently completed the filming of the television show “The Ultimate Fighter” Season 10.  The show itself was an interesting social experiment (think of a real life Lord of the Flies) but the most interesting thing about the show is the way I feel now after coming home to my wonderful wife and 2 loving children.

I feel kinda like a stranger in my own skin.  Im still adjusting to all the stimuli that I had forgotten about over the previous 6 weeks.  Talking on the phone is kind of a chore now and considering that I own a sports nutrition company, I have to be on the phone quite a bit checking in with clients and yada yada.  I know that I’m happy to be home and my family is happy to have me back, but I kind of feel emotionless.  Like I just spent so long not caring about anyone but myself (the show) that Im struggling to “reattach” if you will.

A good friend of mine and UFC fighter Chris Lytle did the show a few years back in season 4 and he told me that there would be an adjustment period after the filming was completed but I’m surprised that it has lasted this long.  I wonder if the others that were on the show are feeling the same way….

Maybe it’s the competitor in me, but I don’t really want to ask any of them.  I’m looking forward to getting my emotions back and I’m sure that this cyborg-esque feeling is almost over but its kind of interesting to me to feel this way.  I typically wear my emotions on my sleeve and I just dont feel right  being sleeveless.

Sorry for the inomplete blog.  I can’t sleep very well either.